Opening

Some words are spoken lightly and understood superficially. Some are used too early and some - too late.

Sometimes these words or statements are in trend, they sound clever and give us the feeling that we have figured out something important and multidimensional. Sometimes phrases get worn out too quickly from excessive usage, long before I understand what they really mean.

One such word is opening. We often hear in therapeutic circles how we should open ourselves to the new, how exciting is the time we live in, how so many things are changing, how we need to open up and let people get closer, to open ourselves to trust, abundance... and so on, and so on. It's as if we were born with buttons for all these openings, so it's easy to press them and move like the shades that are raised and dropped by remote control.

And opening is not at all easy. It actually is, if you don't live in a bunch of beliefs and mental constructs in your mind and body.

For example, I live in such a construction site in my mind. That's why I'm one of those people who do not open up easily.

In that case, energy fields sometimes have entire conglomerates of buildings, towers, embankments and dams that we carry all together in one big bag, laid out in different personalized ways.

For most of us, human beings, opening represents a challenge and pain, annoyance and sweat, because that opening goes against the direction of this whole construction site in which we have been living for a very long time. Habits that have become part of the identity impose certain roles and bring a sense of security. Strange things have become a source of safety: indecision, procrastination, resistance, confusion, split, fear, doubt... the phenomenas of consciousness which are the source of all instability and restlessness, in some twisted and strange way, become security itself.

To make the paradox even bigger, when we encounter something open, like I did today a fish and an octopus at the bottom of the sea, we get scared,  dwell and doubt.

A medium size fish, with yellow and bluish hues, was resting in water, quite close to the surface. As I approached it to a meter or less, she looked at me with her big eye and let the sea waves gently rock her. Open, in its natural environment, undisturbed by my presence, unafraid, yet present, it calmly continued to exist. And me? My nervous system was already buzzing not to disturb it, not to scare it, not to hurt it, not to touch it with my arm or a leg… what if it moves towards me? In such natural frequencies and environments, one quickly becomes aware of how many anxieties and fears we still carry.

That close encounter lasted a long time. Not because I just spent a few minutes of linear time with one particular fish, but because it was a port to another dimension. And while we were reflecting each other in our eyes, the fish conveyed a lot of wisdom to me. What is the meaning of the effortless intention and what it means to just be and to be present, living in the very moment, as well as subtly tuning in the direction from which the wave gently moved her. Its intention was to stay in that one place, but there is no complete stillness in the sea. Everything is moving, more or less, all the time. All she needed was a small movement of her fins to the left and she would be back at the place where she wanted to be. It looks easy. There is no resistance, and yet no aimless wandering to where the current takes it. It lets go and adjusts. Everything flows.

Then I realized one key thing.

Another one of those popular terms is letting go. That term is used lightly and is one of those that is said too early. Letting go sounds like a good formula - let go of a toxic relationship, change job,  let go of  a husband or wife…

An effective letting go, an organic one, which provides a new step in evolution and manifestation of a person, cannot happen if the opening has not happened first.

Letting go is a consequence of opening.

If you only have your fingers clenched, you can't let anything go. As soon as they open, letting go of what we are holding on to happens automatically.

Letting go is not the essence, but the consequence. Opening is the quintessence. And that includes our opening to the ourselves, as well as to those people who embody goodness while we twist and turn, stretch and shrink until we finally open.

Back to the fish…

We floated in such manner in each other's presence for a long time, until my friend swam up to tell me that she had found an octopus in a place nearby. This fish reminded me of other dimensions, which exist right next to this one, and how it is only a matter of a very subtle change (a millimeter to the left or right, not only with the body, but also with the mind and focus) and we can access various realities.

Not thinking much whether to leave it or not (there is no attachment and indecision in the present moment, only in the old constructs we live in), I swam after my friend in search of the octopus. If she hadn't pointed, I would have never seen it in the seaweed swaying with the waves. There was no fear here either. It calmly did what octopuses do: occasionally extended his tentacles and moved, grasping at the rock and adjusting its color, moving elegantly and gliding through the water to the next place… all this without fear, with no rush, completely in harmony with the sea, the currents and its supple body.

And so, in a long and timeless moment, the three of us, two human beings and one medium octopus, floated and existed until water did feel a bit cold.. Not in an unfocused way, but together in the field, each one in her own experience, each one focused on the moments that unfolded within us, outside and inside. There were also some other fish, and a black one that followed it and swam around it... and seaweed, and tiny microorganisms... the totality of life.

Openness...today I learned a big lesson without words. The goodness of life and people around me, the goodness of water, sea creatures, the goodness of a tree and sky. In reality, I am the only one missing - to open myself up to that kindness a little bit more - little by little, until I move into an open life that offers a completely different experience than the one I've known so far. From that place, life and perception look and are experienced quite differently. We are filled with curiosity, the pleasant here and now, the wisdom that permeates and surrounds us all, connections and contacts in a completely different way, the entire interconnectedness of life, and its infinite mystery. Always something new to experience in the continuity of existence.

And then, beauty! The one that is immediately recognizable, always there, of course, if we notice it, in other words, if we open to it. They say that beauty is the neighbor of love. Once we can recognize beauty, love is not far away either.

The fullness of the field, of being, of life.

Opening…